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I'm fairly certain anyone who reads this blog is already well aware, but I figured it was only right to make it official here... so, friends, please meet Adeline!
Isn't she just the BEST?? I'm so in love it's pitiful, and thanks to my usual sappiness plus an extra dose of hormones, I find myself so overwhelmed with my feelings for her that I just don't know what to do with myself. Besides saying things like "just look at her" and "I just can't handle that little face!" out loud to no one in particular throughout the day (because it's usually just me and Adeline hanging out...) I've taken to scrolling through the hundreds of photos already saved on my phone almost every night in bed (when I should be sleeping) and tapping Dan every few minutes to point out how absolutely adorable she is in a photo that he's likely already seen a dozen times before. Thankfully, I married a very patient man and he's very good at just smiling and reminding me that he is also over the moon in love with her so he is already well aware of how cute she is. I know very well I'm probably already annoying people with my abundance of Facebook and Instagram photos of her... but I just can't help it! I'm in love I'm in love and I don't care who knows it.
Adeline decided that she wanted to join us a full month early, and arrived early in the morning on March 6th. I can't believe how much she has grown and changed in such a short time! Based on the above rambling about how awesome she is, I'm sure it's no surprise to anyone that I am loving every single second of being a mom. I like to think I've settled in to my new role nicely, but it's definitely not without some struggles. I think the biggest hurdle I'm dealing with is the lack of a schedule in my days, which has been a HUGE adjustment for me. I'm a creature of habit and thrive on structure, and while I knew having a newborn would pretty much be the exact opposite of routine, I was admittedly not prepared for it. I'm slowly learning to just go with the flow, but also realize that my maternity leave is half over already and we'll need to have some level of routine figured out by the time I go back to work... so we'll see how it goes!
Breastfeeding has been great in the sense that my body has adjusted to what it needs to do and Adeline took to nursing easily despite us not being able to start right away (she was in NICU for 6 days and had a feeding tube for most of that time). The downside is that we haven't figured out any level of modesty with it yet so leaving the house usually involves me worrying the whole time that she's going to want to eat and I won't be able to feed her without locking myself in a bathroom stall somewhere for 20 minutes. I know it will continue to get easier with time, and for now I'm just grateful that it's working out since I wasn't at all optimistic about it during my pregnancy.
Adeline is thankfully kind of a champ in the sleep department and is already giving us a good 4-5 hour stretch of sleep most nights... one of the positives to having a preemie. Based on what I've heard from others, it sounds like my sleep deprivation is nothing compared to what it could be... but that doesn't mean I'm not exhausted and I have to work verrrrrry hard to not take that out on the hubs :) who as I have mentioned many times before is seriously a saint for dealing with me on a daily basis.
So, life is blissfully full of cuddling, nursing, singing songs, changing diapers, naps, tummy time, trying to memorize every little face Adeline makes and calling her every single nickname I can possibly think of (Munchkin Face is the current favorite). I'll hopefully get back to blogging more regularly at some point, but in the meantime if you think Adeline is as cute as I do, click over to my Instagram feed for the day to day!