Catching Up

//  A bit of a weekend brain dump  //

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Life has been incredibly busy lately, friends. But really, when is it not? I kind of honestly love it that way, but it certainly gets stressful when so many things feel out of your control, and I’ve had a bit of that lately with my health.

A few weeks ago, I FINALLY got the necessary spinal tap that led to a real diagnosis for my eye, and it’s unfortunately officially linked to my pregnancy. This means I’m on meds at least until The Littlest Lawler arrives to try and make sure I don't lose more vision permanently, and I’m under close watch by my OB and my neuro-opthomologist for the next several months. We have lots of questions for them regarding my delivery, future pregnancies and my health after the baby comes, so there’s a lot going on there. But, I’m grateful for a real diagnosis and for doctors who are carefully monitoring everything. Minus my vision problems, I’m feeling pretty good, so I really can’t complain too much. I’m definitely starting to see some side effects from the meds I’m on that I’m not thrilled about (puffy face, flushing in my skin, trouble sleeping), but I’m trying to focus on the positive and not get too hung up on what I look like. I have my share of bad days where I can't believe this is all happening and wonder "why me?" but I WANT to remember this pregnancy as good times regardless of the diagnosis, so I'm working on it.

We were scheduled to find out if baby is a boy or a girl last week... but the little stinker didn't want to show off and we left still guessing. I’m 110% convinced it’s a girl, while the hubs is just as certain it’s a boy, so we’re definitely in for a surprise either way when we do find out! Thankfully, everything the tech could see looked great and The Littlest Lawler is measuring right where he or she should be at this point. We spent a couple hours at Buy Buy Baby looking at strollers and carseats and the like a few weekends ago, and I’m looking forward to starting on a registry once we know what we’re expecting. I’m a huge fan of neutral items when it comes to the big stuff, but I’ve also seen a bunch of very-boy items and very-girl items that I ADORE so I can’t wait to pick and choose those things as well.

I’m also super anxious to get started on the nursery! This is another area that will be fairly gender-neutral, but again, I’ve seen lots of little touches that I imagine will skew it one way or the other. I never thought I’d be a fan of really girly stuff, but the crib I’ve oogled for years comes in a really light blush pink and I’m kind of obsessed with it thinking about having a girl… We shall see! Thanks to my planning and thinking this pregnancy would happen ages ago, I’ve been collecting items for years and we’re already in decent shape for some of the big ticket stuff. I have my dream rocking chair and picked out an ottoman to go with it, along with a floor lamp from Ikea that I love. I already have a white campaign dresser that we’re planning to also use as a changing table, and we also have a white bookshelf with nowhere to go that will likely stay in that room as long as space allows. The closet is huge and completely empty so we’ll need to configure that which I unfortunately know is a bit of an investment, but I’m thinking we’ll keep it pretty simple so it works throughout the years. Other than that I’m planning on a gallery wall (no surprise there I’m sure) and looking forward to selecting curtains and a light fixture as the room comes together!

I've said it before and I'll probably say it again before it sticks, but I truly do hope to get back on the blogging bandwagon moving forward... if for nothing else than to keep a little journal of sorts of these months while we wait to meet The Littlest Lawler!