When it comes to health


I am in love with this image. Absolutely, positively in love. And I just fell a little deeper even when I dragged it to my desktop and it automatically saved as "watch-her-run.jpeg". Better than any image of a super skinny model in a bikini, this image has been pure inspiration for me since I saw it a few days ago.

I've talked about my health here in the past, and truth be told, I've done next to nothing about it since that first post. It's unfortunate that things often have to get really dire for me to actually make a change, but that's how I work and for the most part, I haven't steered myself too wrong in the past. Anyways, with my health that's kind of how it's going right now. I'm not doing well. I've been to doctors more times than I can count in the last few months and have gotten so many blood tests done that I have literally had a bruise on my arm at all times the majority of the summer. It's a long story, but the bottom line is that everything is coming back "normal" and no doctor I'm currently seeing is ready to give me any sort of diagnosis. The medication that I've been on for years that keeps my dizziness at bay is not approved for women who are pregnant or nursing, which means that while I don't have to worry about that TODAY, it is something I'm going to have to stop taking at some point in the not too far off future. I don't have it in me to go from doctor to doctor begging for someone to give me a reason why I am absolutely exhausted ALL. the. time. and I don't have the money to keep going to specialists and getting blood draws on the regular. What's left is for me to take it all into my own hands, accept that it might be a little difficult, and do something about it. That means less eating out and more eating fruits, veggies and proteins at home. It means less hitting snooze 12 times and more getting up for a jog with Louie or a P-90X video in the living room. It means less spending my money on flip flops and more investing in an awesome pair of running shoes that will make it a little more fun to drag myself out of bed in the morning. I honestly have no idea if any of this will make a difference, and I promise that I'm not exaggerating my tiredness, which means actually getting out of bed to workout is going to be really, really hard for me. Wish me luck, say a prayer for me, cross your fingers, whatever. But I'm gonna need all the pep talks, motivation and literal shoves out the door to workout I can get.